Friday, June 29, 2012
Monday, June 25, 2012
I can hardly believe it. But it’s true. Cameron took a new job and we’ll be out of Washington in about two weeks. We have so much to do, it’s a bit overwhelming. I’ll fill you in on the details over the next couple of days. Any guesses on where we are headed?? I’ll give you one hint (well not really that great of one) but I keep telling the kids that summer starts in 2 weeks!! Now for a better hint some of you lovely people who read our blog live there. So excited and sad at the same time.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Well it’s finally here Xander’s due date and not only is it his due date but it’s also been 13 long weeks or 3 short months since he was born. I’ve cried so much over the weekend that I feel kind of spent today. Cam and I were just talking about him the other night, laying in bed just chatting about what we missed about him, how cute he was, how small and big he was. How hard it was to see him die and not be able to do anything to stop it. How you have this sense of trying to soak up a lifetime of living in the little time you have. How it really wasn’t enough time. How horrible it was to watch him get taken away. We talked about other stuff too, stuff I have never shared because well it’s sad and hard. How it really didn’t feel any different after he died as it did when he was alive. The spirit was so strong it was the closest I’ve come to heaven on earth. It was that feeling you get when a new baby is born times a million. I can’t really describe it, but it was amazing and in a lot of ways I feel privileged that I had the opportunity to experience it. Especially since we really didn’t lose anything. Maybe we can’t see him but he’s real, he’s our son. I love him, I miss him, but he is ours.
We love you our little Xander boy.
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Aftyn was annoying Tanner to the extreme today while we were running around doing errands. Finally he got so feed up he says
“Aftyn being a big brother is a really, really hard job. Just wait and see when you’re a big brother you’ll see it’s really hard. Well you’re a girl so you’ll be a big sister, but it’s a SUPER HARD JOB so STOP annoying me!”
I didn’t want to burst his bubble and tell him that with two little brothers under her Aftyn already is a big sister. Plus I was just really happy he didn’t slug her in the face, because she was being seriously annoying.